no sleep, thanks.

so right now lots of things are running through my mind. it's pretty wild. i think that sometimes the best way for me to get it all sorted it out is to write. not that i'm any good at writing or anything... i just kinda like it.

there is too much going on in my life. sometimes i honestly wish i could drop out of school and go to beauty school. i know that is not gonna work out for me, but i wish i wanted it and i was doing that. it seems nicer than school right now.

i have too many tests all at once. why in the world do teachers have tests all at once? seriously. i never have had midterms all in a one week period. that is completely wild and inappropriate of them.

i want to be a good dancer, but i'm not. i'm mad that i ever quit dance and gymnastics when i was little. i mean, i know i hated it then... but i love it now. and sometimes i feel like it's too late and that ship has sailed.

i miss home a lot these days. i miss my family and my house. i miss being able to talk to my mom whenever i want. i miss not seeing frozen disgusting every time i go outside.

i miss swimming. i went swimming last week because i felt like mono wasn't ruling my life at the time. but honestly, i'm not good at swimming anymore either... which is sad because it was MY thing. and now i don't really have a thing.

i want a desk. i miss putting my purse on a surface besides my floor that has diseases. i want to put my boxes on my dresser and i want to have picture frames and i just need more space.

i want washers and dryers that work. but low and behold, the ones here will never work. not even in their wildest dreams.

i want food that lasts. i want to be able to put lettuce in the fridge and have it last more than two days. but it doesn't because i don't even know why. it's frustrating. i want more space to put good food. i don't want to have to dig for my cans of beans anymore.

i want my bed sheets to always smell nice. but that requires me washing them every day. but it would be nice if i could have that. just saying.

i want water that tastes delicious. and if i'm thirsty in the night, i want to go to the freezer and push the little button and have the crushed ice come out... and then push the other button and get 6 ounces of water. oh and i want it in a clean glass cup.

i want my carpet to be clean and possible for me to lay down on.

this helped. thanks for letting me vent.

hasta luego amigos.
jess